My Personal Struggle Finding a Space Between Punishing Bad Behavior to Rewarding Bad Behavior for Non-Support from the Black Community I Love

norad I have been deeply conflicted about dealing with the lack of support from the overall black community who pretend I don’t exist as a black tech entrepreneur and expert while these same black people chasing fake news stories about fake black tech entrepreneurs. I have already begun divestment from many black people I knew for years and blogs I read for years because they continued to act like I’m just some basic fucker in tech they can just watch and observe but not speak for or vouch for. I began to drop childhood friends and alumni who spread fake news or lame cats over Facebook when they personally saw me building HTML web pages in 1994 on Mosaic. I blog for 10 years and black people read the blog, I get the traffic and they then don’t forward the information or don’t even mention Dream and Hustle or seeing what they can “take” and here is the thing, I have no problem with you guys stealing my shit, I have a problem seeing 6 months later, you ain’t done shit special with the shit you taken from me. And one more thing I have not revealed and it just a rumor – I have quietly divested from Chicago and making Brooklyn my “up North” base outside of Atlanta because I’m just tired of the funny acting peers from Chicago I got who don’t come visit me in Atlanta. When people from Chicago hear you doing really well down in Houston or Atlanta or Los Angeles, they got excuses why they cannot come visit you. I had more fine sistas fly down from Newark, Queens and Brooklyn and Bronx and Harlem to hang out with Ed than sistas I grew up with in Chicago. I can’t give away any much more information than my Chinese bae already up in Brooklyn testing the area for us and right now, we both thinking New York is a nice place to visit and short-term for business but too expensive to make a home. But the point is, I’m strategically cutting ties from the black community that refused to support me when I have a demonstrated skill and work to do something real for the black community upliftment and betterment. Because of my skills and I already applied on advice of my bae, I can easily go into UK, Singapore, Japan, Australia, China, UAE on a special tech visa due to my skillset in tech and I actually have invitations to be sponsored and move to these countries to operate Swagg-Scientific as an entrepreneur. So I can easily disappear and show up as an expat in another country making hard ass moves and forget where I come from and use none of my skills to help the black community I was raised in but did not support me when I worked my ass off learning how to support my own community back. But black folks want spread fake news or hear someone talk shit instead of roll up their sleeves and make work to make shit happen. But the evil Ed side of me that telling me to fuck the black community for not supporting me even has to be honest – most of these fake black folks are Internet avatars at best. In the real world, black people do support me and what I do and are excited. But in reality, if black people are not speaking up for me, then I cannot be effective in supporting my people and if black people are speaking up for fake news characters, then black folks are fucking themselves supporting fake people who won’t do anything for them. But is that what black people really want, nobody to do nothing for them? This is the internal struggle I have to define as where do I position a strategy that allow me to support the black community but say fuck the black people who didn’t support me but was supporting fake news? I also have to keep in mind I cannot support black people who don’t support me because I will be rewarding bad behavior towards me, hurting myself while benefiting those that were adversarial to me. calf This is not unique to me – this is the struggle of every emerging leader or talent who is compelled to serve a higher calling. We can look at the bible where Moses went up the mountain to speak to God about establishing Hebrew laws and the folks at the bottom, what the fuck the people do? Some dude created a fake golden calf idol to spread fake news and those Hebrews started worshipping that shit, even after God parted the Red Sea for their ass a few weeks ago. Jesus walking on water and raising people from the dead and breaking off fish and biscuits to feed a whole group of people and these people still end up screaming “crucify him!” at a Trump-like Roman rally where they captured Jesus after being betrayed by one of his apostles. So this conflict and struggle existed as long as civilization existed, period. So forgiving them for not what they do is exactly what is being said in this blog article and the question – do you forgive black people for not what they do? Or do you say fuck black people for what they did not do which is support you and just go do you in this world? Why help black people who ain’t showing you any love back? But the problem is there are innocent black people and they get caught up in your overall retaliation against black people you want to retaliate against for wanting to hear fake news instead of real solutions to uplifting and bettering the black community. We been hurt economically when a black-owned business shut down and say fuck the black community for treating black businesses like shit while black folks run out to the suburbs and spend their money with the white malls they can't get a job at. Think about it - these same black people struggle to find employment and complaining they cannot find a job but do not support their community black entrepreneurs that can give them jobs. I seen plenty of black bloggers who gave up, some even commit suicide being disappointed trying to blog about black information only to see black people outright ignore it and then you see these same black folks sharing fake news or talking up WorldStarHipHop or MediaTakeOut instead. If you look at every African conflict where genocide occurred and rebels rape and kill civilians, you will see the same background – the rebels attacked the local villagers because the villagers supported the corrupt African leaders in power instead of rise up for their own best interest. And doing nothing under oppression is the same as supporting oppression. Look, I got the technology and business models figured out nicely to better the black community but I just don’t have the overall support I need from the black community in comparison to other communities. Let me clarify, I do got support from a beautiful UK black community with beautiful black people and I’m beginning to love what I’m seeing in the UK. But I do know there are good brothas and sistas out there who truly support me in a real way in the real world. So turning evil against black people by fully divesting my skills from being benefited by black folks like many others who came before me has done, I want to think differently about the approach. That is the struggle of how to say I want to help the black community but fuck the black folks who pretended I didn’t exist or didn’t support me or acted funny. I cannot say I solved this personal struggle and conflict and just acknowledging that everybody goes through this. The one thing I do know is I can filter out the bozos but filtering out blacks will make me an elitist and a gatekeeper and maybe I have to accept that is probably the only way to do it. But that is probably the struggle and what God and the Bible has been teaching me and been denying it. Maybe there are chosen people who make the higher calling and they have to associate only with other chosen people. Maybe the mass and majority of people are fucking sheep or lambs or whatever, just here mortally to basically eat and shit and die. Maybe I want to believe in populism that everybody is smart enough to know their best interest but history has shown over and over individuals have to become revolutionary and vicious warlords or dictators and force the will upon the ignorant mass to follow. That is the struggle as violent rebellions that target both the government and civilians using terrorism and atrocities is the popular path nobody wants to go but it just keep ending up that way throughout history. truth Or maybe I need to accept my primal nature that I am an omnivore that preys on the weak to maintain my own survival. That the majority of docile black people should be used and misled with fake news and emotional appeal and that is just the way it is. Maybe I should engage in fake news and misleading black people as well and look after myself and my interest instead as Mother Nature intelligently designed me to be. I cannot do that even if that is my nature because I have a higher calling that does not accommodate me reducing myself to primal instincts. Any fucking organism or animal can devolve to their primal instincts and I refuse to live a cheap mortal life that reduced myself to that level of living this life I’m blessed to enjoy every morning I can wake up. What I’m going to do for now is negotiate my internal struggle. I’m going to have to accept the majority of black people are sheep and not willing to work collectively for their own best interest - our history already proven this and I cannot deny this fact about our people overall. I’m also going to accept that there are a chosen few who are led by their own calling and there are those who support those who chose to pursue their calling and focus on surrounding myself around these people. The best I can do is lift myself up and express how I truly feel which is fuck the clowns that didn’t support me and give those that do support me all of the best I can give them to hopefully give value and purpose to creating a better situation for all.

19 thoughts on “My Personal Struggle Finding a Space Between Punishing Bad Behavior to Rewarding Bad Behavior for Non-Support from the Black Community I Love

  1. Sadly, some of us US Black folk don’t want to grow or try to get better coz some may think there are no guarantees the efforts will show tangible results. But staying the same in a changing and ever accelerating world is a recipe for disaster.

    Your efforts are not in vain. Keep building coz there are many who are inspired by your wisdom and are learning the skills needed to build as well. What can we do to better support you and your efforts?

  2. Bruh, I have the same struggle. I’m a tech guy and entrepreneur. I’ve been doing tech for nearly 3 decades. Right now I’m consulting in the FinTech (blockchain24x7.com) and my latest venture is a gaming studio (brownskingames.com) which develops and published games and interactive books.

    I owned several other black focused businesses including a talent agency whose roster included Cynthia Bailey and Keri Hilson, just to name a few. I started a black oriented social network called SixDegreesBlack before Facebook. I’ve had a consulting business where white fortune 100/500 companies would hire me and black companies wouldn’t even take me after offering to volunteer my services. I’ve had a few software products, publications and hell I even did a hot dog vending business/foot truck before it was cool.

    And all in all, I’ve never been supported by my own people. Brown Skin Games has released 10 games in 2016 (just started in Feb 2016). You name a black celeb and I’ve reached out to them to partner on games and/or interactive books. So far, zero, zip, nada, none have taken it up. I’m close to closing a deal with a Hispanic female since she still fits the Brown Skin concept for the company.

    My friends, the ones I have left, think I’m crazy. My ex’s and baby mamas think I’m a fool because I could be rich 10 times over if I focused my business for any other group rather than blacks.

    In the end, I love my people. And I will NEVER under any circumstance turn my back on them. They don’t get it. I know. Maybe one day they will. Bruh, all I’m saying is “we” just gotta get ONE of these ideas right and it could potentially transform our people. We only have to be right once. How can you and I work together?

  3. For what it’s worth, this blog has helped me and opened my eyes to new things – Even sparked ideas. I just need to move on things.

    Unfortunately, I already graduated from school by the time I found this blog, but I’ve been working to get the knowledge and skills, specifically in Computer Programing.

    I’ll definitely make sure to share more of the articles on this blog.

  4. Trust me Ed you sharing your knowledge and global vision does not fall on deaf ears to everyone. I’m one of the older visionaries who appreciates what you share. You can teach an old dog new tricks…

  5. Ed The realest ninja in it, y ‘all already know , got trapper of the year, 4 times in a row. I quit my job, (jumped off a moving truck at the truck stop across from blue flame in Atlanta, Real story) after i read a post about 2 years ago, I received my Web development Certificate(12 months) that opened me up to code academy(learning php, github,)
    Stumbled across another state grant at the School(Atlantic Tech, Coconut Creek Fla) Learning game development, i get the cert in January(I took those six months to learn javascript). For the brother that has brownskingames, Look me up on Linkdin. By the way my teacher is a south african black man that fled apartheid( the shot him in the foot) this brother is a multi-millionaire but still is here dealing with dumb ass american kids and grown adults who wanna learn like me. When we on the ball, we on the ball. What happened to the brother who was doing 3D design on here abut a year ago? I was thinking putting an nfc tag inside of a ladies bra and letting them scan then have the ability to compose a body figure and change sizes proportional to their body type. Cancer patient, Petite ladies, Busty women. Without them having to put the garmet on(disgusting) even bras on the rack , i see ladies putting them up to their chest. We got wearables that we’re testing over the christmas holiday(bunch of high schooler s great market). Oil change, tire kingdom , nfc. That’s all i’m gonna say
    And that ugly sticker in the top left of your car window that you ignore or forget. Which leads me to why my behind is re registering in february for the 12 month database design(My sql) the whole jawn. I went to dice.com. Like martin say”wo, woo, woo,wooow,owoo”. 75, to a buck 125 starting salary. Drop in all this good Shzt i know from dream and hustle. Ed you gave me the vision. p.s I send (niggas) here, the run from this like the daddy they never had. Dream and hustle don’t cut no shorts on the black man here. You give out to much info(im still researching articles a year back, you drop a lot of hidden jewels)for ninjas to be broke. You give straight dose, no chase like we need. Keep up the Revolutionary work. And to the Dream and Hustle readers, like he said we a’int special, GET TO WORK….. p.p.s that fooky api is where its at. How do we show business of the benefits of getting on the blockchain. Example(sorry for the ramble) Laundry mat, that little board where everybody advertise shzt, i took that and digitilize it, 15 company’s and business(I’m in south florida, spanish, Portugese, Creole). I’ma wait for the article.

    1. “Brandonharold”, what in the world are you talking about. Please bruh just say keep up the good work Ed, I like to read the comments but yours was way too warped. SMH

    2. BB – he can keep it real like me. He don’t need to downsize and neither do I when I speak. I felt he kept his message real that he actually doing something and called the brothas out to stop running like a deadbeat and do something also. I don’t understand why that is being criticized or asking to be played down.

  6. I like your take bro. Ed. STEM brothers rule. I’m also trying to start a gaming/animation studio. No easy task, but I’m breaking it down piece by start. This past semester I was working on some simple animation algorithms for 3D, but initially I intend to use it mainly for 2D because the 3D modeling/texturing pipeline is beastly.

  7. Bro Ed;
    I got to response…I have been following your blog for years now.. I’m older than the average Young Black person you are trying to reach. I’m still lost on SQLEXPRADV_x64_ENU…I simply wish you would have someone on your team response to some of the platforms that you have created. Because I want to help spread this Blockchain technology to our Black folks you want to reach. Does anybody in your team;3rd Strategic Institute, Swagg-Scientific, Kossier.com or the Global Urban Collective help to implement economy solutions?
    Please reply privately to my Email.
    Thank
    Brother Ron T.

    1. I will publishing how-to soon. The problem is when I put the information out, black people ignore it but I have white and othe groups who know my expertise take the information and do something.

      See the danger is not me, it’s the fact knowledge and opportunities are there for those who take. I published how to on the drones before Amazon announced. I published self-checkout market before Amazon announced. I published peer-to-peer commercial delivery before Amazon announced. I even published extensively on pop-up stores, food trucks and mobile money before they were widely adopted. I wrote the original article describing how Rick Ross can create a popup when they release or on tour..now the rappers doing this.

      People do Google search for things like the blockchain and my articles come up and they read. Meanwhile black folks think I should be ignored and their crab-in-the-barrel tunnel vision forces them to believe no one else in the world checking this Dream and Hustle blog for how-to. So I have to be careful about what I put out that the outcome could be black folks ignore Dream and Hustle because they love fake news and then wonder why some Latvian kid took over digital space of a black hood not realizing that Latvian kids loves Dream and Hustle and writes me all the time.

      I will post stuff after the holiday break but I cannot release anymore IP with a new CEO coming in that is a stakeholder.

      1. Bro T’s comments were right on point. I signed up for an online SQL Class to better understand the process. I also understand your trepidation about continuing to release to a group of folk who don’t want to pay attn Well some of us have paid attn and will continue to do so.
        I understand with a new CEO and stakeholder you cannot just open and divulge all of your vast knowledge as you previously have done but anything you do share will be well accepted by this “OG”. I’m not too old to become deeply involved in Afro-Tech.
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    2. Thanks for replying so quickly my Brother. Please enjoy your Holidays and submit my name for closer review for network potentials !

  8. Ed, as always I love the realness in your posts and how you simply be you. I cannot thank you enough on what I have learned. I continue to push the brink to learn more tech and even push my daughter to realize the potential that is out there. Hopefully, we will not wait until the last minute to take heed to all you have given.

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